halamak...mcm gamba lame kan??
kekasih amie (wan) + kekasih aku (ckin)
p/s: zozo misses u a lot, too!
yang dorg ni pon seronok le dpt goodies bag...cam biase ler...goodies beg den bini den yg sebat!!
i’m sorry for being so ruthless for the past one whole week. we’ve learnt our lesson so much tru it..like i said before..if i spill it..means i want u to understand the situation, the problem and therefore u know ur mistake. thus u can say sorry and not blatantly repeat the same mistake again…in contrary if i don’t have any intention to repair this relationship..i’ll be silent..and slowly dissappear.. but i dont do that because i love you..remember i told u before, the moment i decided to be with u..i was serious..i want us to be forever.. and i’ll make sure it be reality..and that is not a cheap talk..and frankly speaking..i feel at ease after i spill it in the blog.. though i know that blog will kill u..and now i wanted so much to redeem it.. i wanted to catch and pull back the arrow that had thrusted abruptly right to the centre of ur chest…
i want u and me to mend this..that’s why i bring it on. i’m not the type of person who can speak well..and after throw it tru wordss to my frens than i’ll be ok..no, i’m not that.. and i’m not the type who cry..then i feel release…no, that’s not me either.. i’ll always keep things inside.. i dont know how to share my probs with other..i just dont believe sharing is caring.. for me sharing is fucking.. in reality nobody care for us! they just wanna fuck us! they just waiting for the right time..meanwhile they disguise behind they angle-look face.
i dont give a damn to people like this..i dont trust anyone. for me, entertaining people like this is just a waste of my expensive time.. that’s why..you poeple who talk bad stuff about me..i dont do nothing!.. u fuck me to my newly-wed wife..i dont do nothing!..she cried, her best friend cried..because of the stories u brought… but still.. i dont do nothing to u! why?? because i’m not like u! i-am-not-like-u!… for educated and professional people like me… you guys are just blood-sucking motherfucker who worth nothing more than a bloody asshole flea for us to entertain! such a waste of time! (dont be mad i said u so! because what u sow is what u reap buddy!..u reflect urself like that..not me! u show ur price..not me!..dats why they said i’m expensive..because whatever u do..i just remain silent..and ignore..because as wiseman say - silence is brilliant and if i reply back whatever u do..then we’ll be the same..and i never want to downgrade myself!! oh jeez no! )
i was wrong the accept ur hand to be my fren monthss ago..that was my mistake. i should know u have ur own agenda. i trusted u with all my heart and that was why i dont mind to give u my mrs’s ym id, phone number and i even fulfiled your wish to meet her! (how nice am i, dont u think?) because i was sincere to u..to this friendship. no hidden agenda.. but at the back..u fucked me! everytime u chatted with her..u talked all the bad things about me in the past, u forward all my chats with other girls in the past to her, why? …frens dont do that to frens, am i not right? therefore i sum up that u never once percieve me as a fren. u just want to revenge! go ahead buddy…if that can satisfy u. chat with all my frens in my frenster…chat with all my frenss in my yahoo list..talk bad things about me…go on sell my dignity… go ahead!.. but pls ask them… have i ever say something bad about u to them?? ask them???!!! then ask my mrs.. have i ever talked something bad about u to her?.. the answer is NEVER! that’s why she likes u..she treat u as a sister..because all the stories that i told her was everything positive about u… but just imagine…if from day 1 i fucked u.. and keep on fucking u to her..will u think she’s gonna entertain u when first time u buzz her in ym? will she reply ur text?? will she pick up ur call??? come on buddy.. for once, pls put on ur thinking cap.. be an adult. or if it is very difficult for u to comprehend, just flash back to our past. remember when u met ur partner?.. i was happy. in fact i am the one who asked ur partner to find someone near. because she always complaint of having a-far-away coule is so difficult…so i was happy she found u.. but…when she talk about u..never once she said that u are good.. she said that u are a women-beater, u such a broke-down fellow..bla..blaa..blaa and as a consequences i hated u so much! (of coz i was mad to discover u beat her..when i never even pinch her! ) i don’t even want to look at ur face! that was why i refused to meet u..run from u..i hate u..i can’t even look at ur face! till u said that i was coward… and i think, that is what definitely will happen if i fuck u to my mrs! she will hate u! i don’t think she will pick up ur call, reply ur text … don’t u think??? but as u know.. she was nice to u.. call u adik.. bought u cigar… why? that’s why i said..put on ur thinking cap buddy..at least for once in ur lifetime…the answer is simple, because i tell her nice story abt u… come buddy, think…open up ur mind. or maybe its good if we trade our shoe..u use mind..i use urs..just to see wut is like to be me..i’ll be u..just to see what it like to feel my pain and i feel ur pain..and go inside each other’s mind..
lemme tell u somehing… (this kinda stuff only come across the mind of scholistic ppl by the way) .. but i wanna share with u..you know.. when u talk bad things abt me to my frens…. my frenss wont judge me.. but they actually judging u.. am i not right frenss??? u, yourself show that u are a jerk!.. wut do we call a fren who fuck her fren? ….. jerk? fucker? motherfucker? shit? yeap.. thats u..! grow up buddy.. dont let ur mouth destroy u… today u do this to me.. trust me buddy.. this thing will come back to u..u just have to wait…as the saying goes..wut goes around comes around. anyway, we were doing very fine before..good as a fren..but u spoilt everything.. the last we chat, u said that i’m jealous..ha. ha. very funny. i was mad that day because everytime u chat with her ..u will definitly tell her the shit that i’ve done in the past! why? u want her to leave me? u want her to be carefull when she with me? u are trying to be a hero here? saving a girl from me? for god sake, she’s in her mid 30’s young fellow! mid 30’s..not 20’s..she is highly educated, she’s professional..and she doesn’t need an advice from u..who are u?? on top of that, between u and her..she knows me first..we’ve known each other for 18 fucking years!!! now, tell me who are u n where are u in between me and my mrs? that is the sole reason why i mad about u..u shit and fuck me every time u chat with her not because i’m jealous.. as a matter of fact, i never feel jealous between u and my mrs..because i know my mrs very well..she’s not cheap ..she has rules and sets of criteria to be adhered if u wanted to be her mr. let me share with u a few..first, u must posses a fuckin good lookin face! ( this is a must!), 2nd u must be smart and highly educated chap (another must!) bla..bla..blaa..(obviously loadss more) but enough to mention 2, because these 2 basic things u dont have ‘em..then i dont need to tell the rest. therefore, i dont have nothing to be jealous to u. NOTHING! if u want to compare yourself with me..we are way too far (i’m not talking about physical possesion here because this one u are nothing near to me..but our way of thinking, our mind) ..so i dont have reason to feel jealous to u… and if u wanna fire me back, dont use this jealous-stuff-reason..coz her frenss and my frenss will laugh to death if they know u said that i’m jealous. later they will say again this phrase “..obviously u are stupid kan?” .. but, nonetheless one thing i do jealous about u actually, u get to be with ur partner anytime u want..and i can’t..yess this one i do jelous..in fact i envy for all couples who get to stay together..u guys are very lucky! alright, enough about u..if u are not satisfy with my writing..u can always see me..and i can always explain to u..(still, i’m trying to be nice to u..huh..)
pheww…lets get back to my story about me and my mrs., alamak syg..i truly dry out of idea now..maybe i rap so much negetive things up there and it loses my mood..but..thank for last night..it was wonderful..actually here i wanted to say sorry…trust me u have tested me to max..and still i’m here with u….and the 2nd day of my silence killed me like never before! i know i shouldn’t be silence like that..and i’m not proud of that..that just me.. but i think..that sour and stench night will go away once i spray u with ckin2u 
sugar, marry me! i’ll get a ring and talk to ur mother…i never be so certain like this before! u are the one that i want to keep for the rest of my life…u are the one that i want every day and night… i’m sorry for being so out of my mind lately..i luv u..and really luv u..my heart juz need ur gentle touch to cool this anger down..my ears juz need ur voice then only i can hear the voice of others..my eyes juz need ur beautiful smile..then only i’ll be able to see the smile or the rest…and my lips need ur lips to break this frown..for wutever had happened..and will happen, we are solid and nothing can change that.
i’m truly in luv with u, sugar..and i’m so crazy for ur luv..
p/s: pynud...ko ni klaka la...penat aku gelak!
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